2005

Sarah Dugan

 

Arabian Heartbreak

 

Diving in to mark her kill,

Her quickness makes the enemy still,

 

The cynical blade cuts clean and sharp,

The heart of the enemy now falls apart,

 

Paces hasten of everything around,

For this murder is nowhere to be found,

 

Swiftly she came,

Swiftly she went,

Causing you pain,

More than is meant

 

Once alone, dark, and hidden,

She whispers softly, her voice smitten

“You’ll never steal my heart away,”

before she slips off at the break of day.

 

 

Queen Bee

 

Proudly standing over a field of blood,

Her heart as careless as rain in a flood,

It’s scattered everywhere and has hurt many,

But she’ll never pay as much as a penny,

 

Men fall for her; they’ll battle and fight,

As long as her beauty is within their sight,

But behind the mask and this splendors show,

Is what no man would wish to know,

 

Her own thoughts are poison but her eyes won’t reveal,

If they knew what she felt, they’d think it’s unreal,

 

Was she sent from heaven or sent from hell,

The true answer to this in none of their minds dwell.

 

 

Motive

 

Alone in the dark a great warrior stands,

But has suffered defeat in many of the lands,

 

The air bites cold and the wind blows strong,

But this is the place, to which his home belongs,

 

Though lost is his ground and his fortress withered,

There still comes a ray of light upon hither,

 

He may lose many times before he is done,

But he won’t let go to the ray of light from the sun,

 

For this battle is His and His to be Won.

 

Sr. Heupel

Determined Forgetfulness

Beauty arrive after night fall

            And loud streets clamor with quiet voices

            And music means more, dancing seems right.

Swings of echoes

            Of beauty in its many clandestine forms.

Memories of shadows

            Of souls won once understood mine.

Thoughts of digression amount well traveled streets

            And the only purpose is to digress more until you either reincarnate a soul or

            Kills your for a night.

Unmatched emotions come with a glance at the moon.

Nothing remains from day to night.

            Not inhibitions, not reason, not forgetfulness of the fragrance of beautiful.

Everywhere there are purposefully lost people with everywhere important to go.

Be gone as long as possible, to be lost is to win.

            They rhythm of determined forgetfulness resounds tonight, better than worse, within.

 

Trouble at Night

Sometimes in the evenings

            I see you unclearly and still,

Through the fog years and new-found meanings,

            And new differences in will.

So many, I cannot recall all visions

            Though they have passed through my sight,

So many thoughts of indecision

            Not then but tonight.

Sometimes in the evenings,

            All I do is: Why?

It was never given meaning

            Unless by you and I.

Sometimes in the evenings

            I must remember when I pray,

Night skies are deceiving

            There will be more yesterdays.

 

Robyn Gerber

She didn’t think She was Beautiful

 

She didn’t think she was beautiful,

Even thought she shone.

She didn’t think she was funny,

Even thought she made us smile.

She didn’t think she was smart

Even thought she had all the answers.

She didn’t think she could be loved,

Even thought she already was.

She didn’t think she deserved to live

And now she is a reminder to us all.

She was beautiful and smart.

She cheered us up when were sad.

She was lovable,

That is why we hurt.

Because she didn’t know she was beautiful,

Didn’t think she deserved life,

And now is gone forever.

 

I wish we would have told her she’s beautiful.

 

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It’s so hard to see when the lights are off,

It makes it easy to make a mistake.

My life is one misconception after another,

I must be living in the dark.

 

Crucified

Blood pours from my wounds,

Dripping from my wrists,

Seeping from my head.

My splintered back is broken.

Nails holding me down.

Thorns like needles in my skull.

I did it all for you,

For you people who mock me and spite me.

For you people who say you love me and

Then turn your back.

I died for you.

 

 

Lauren Gerber

A Slow Dance with the Shadows

 

Tonight could be the last night on earth. I watch the stars as they come Crashing Down, so Silently, as the Mountains Fade to the Sea. There is Somehow Beauty in the midst of this Chaos, and my heart is Quieted through Shallow Breaths. The Ashes are Falling like Snow, and I am Alone, Shivering in the Darkness, left to Quiet Desperation; to Silent Misery. The Damp air is Unfurling like an Unkept Promise. My eyes are Blank, the Nothingness Vast. I focus on the Twisted braches, their fingertips curling in a Haunting Invitation. Love is as Cold and Distant as the Night Sky.  Even the Stars have turned their backs. The Truth is Unspeakable, as I try to  Forget the Words that could Never make a Difference, as Hearts Fade to Dust. The Shattered Glass Gleams like Silver, and I wonder Why the most Beautiful things are Always Broken. The Dying trees and thistles have grown to a frightening size, and I am afraid that one day, they are all that will be left.

 

Roses and Razorblades

 

Roses and Razorblades, Petal and Pain,

Picking yourself up to be Kicked down Again.

Life—a Vicious cycle of Joy and Tears,

You may feel Alone, but we all have Fears.

Sometimes you’re Losing, Sometimes you’re Winning,

The clock won’t stop Ticking, the world won’t stop spinning.

Disaster and Treasures are all Subjective,

Becoming Bitter or Better Depends on Perspective.

Roses and Razorblades, Petals and pain,

Adaptation is Survival—Nothing stays the Same.

 

 

Broken

 

You Broke the Chains tied to my Wrists,

Scarred my Heart with your Fiery Kiss,

You were my Heaven, although you Knew

I’d go through Hell because of you,

With a thousand words left Unspoken,

You’ve flown Away and left me Broken

 

Shadows

Can’t you see my eyes?

They light up

Through the Shadows

When you walk by,

But you always move away so quickly

And are Careful

To not look at me.

Sometimes I Remember

The Time when

Your Eyes Shone.

And I Wonder if you Remember, too.

And I Wonder if you ever Remember me,

Or think about

The Way Things Were.

And I Wonder who

Fills Your Dreams

Now that I Am Gone

And when you Accidentally

Glance my Direction,

I Wonder if you

Ever Really See me

Or just look Past,

Because from this Distance

I Can’t see your Eyes

Through the Shadows.

Dear God…

I have no Right to Question You,

Or Ask for Reasons Why,

Because I’m just a lowly Mortal

Whose Fated Futures is to Die.

 

But people keep on Hurting, God,

And Life is Never Fair,

And Sometimes, God, I Wonder,

If you Even Care.

 

When you look upon your World, God,

You must be So Sad,

That Something you made Beautiful,

Would Become so Bad.

 

I have no Right to Question You,

But I just want to say:

I’m trusting You to Help me, God,

To Make this right, Someday.

                                                           

 

 

Sarah Hutchinson

Phantom’s love

Flames flicker in the night

Shed abroad are pools of light.

Shadows dance from place to place

Forever lost in time and space.

The wind whispers a lonely song.

A melody of a wounding wrong.

Curtains rustle in present dear.

Time itself draws ever near.

A phantom passes overhead.

He evokes no pains, no fears, no dread.

A remembrance he stays to be;

Of time, of peace, or serenity.

Two eyes ponder, wise and bright.

No stars twinkle in hope tonight.

Barely heard is a humble prayer,

From lips so young, so rich, so fair.

“Keep him while at sea,

Bring him home safe to me.”

Sounded is her evening tread,

To her side a phantom lead.

Over her he gently sighs.

Lost love reflects in his spirit eyes.

By her side he softly weeps,

Caresses her warm, living cheeks.

Over her face he softly leans,

Staring into her eyes unseen.

Upon her lips a gentle kiss,

A moment only; an eternal bliss.

Grimly does the church bell toll.

Pulling away a sorrowful soul.

Alone with her to lose this chance,

Slowly he begins to feel the trance.

Drifting away with words unsaid,

On his lips as he joins the dead.

She wakens suddenly in the night,

By the bell and mysterious fright.

On her stand without repose,

Lays a tender reddened rose.

Far away in the cold grey sea,

A sunken ship their may be.

Among the faces cold and dead,

Lies there one without such a dread.

His smile reveals the eternal bliss,

Of one who’s shared a lasting kiss.

 

Midnight’s Ghost

 

Red sunbeams pass over a quiet glade,

And the petals droop in the coming shade.

The moon rises over a shadowed hill,

Its white light gliding soft and still.

There stands a girl in the meadow green,

Her eyes closed tight, her soul unseen.

She whisper softly to the breeze,

“All is well be at ease.”

She gently sways in a dance well learned

Whose music only she has heard.

A rustle echoes in the night,

Sounding up to the stars to bright.

Her eyes open to see a sight,

Taking in waves of light.

Her jade eyes touched by tender years,

Her wells of wisdom filled by pears,

Her knowledge tempered by her tears,

Reflect a soul who knows no fears.

She slowly walks through beams of light.

Like a hand caressing a harp string might.

With angelic beauty she softly glows,

And over the flowers her beauty sows.

Morning’s blanket gently lies,

Over the grass of the quiet glade.

She vanishes quickly without a sound,

Before the dew is all around.

A memento she leaves singular and small,

The flower petals tender all.

 

Memories

The frost clings in the morning air.

Like strands of thin graying hair,

On an old man who sits on the bench in the park.

Less of a crow, and more of a lark.

The green bench, cold and hard,

Likewise by seasons has also been marred.

The old man looked out at the trees,

With their crimson, gold, browning leaves.

He thought of times past and gone.

Of how quickly they creep along.

A red haired girl invades his mind,

Fired by temper,

But wonderfully kind.

Her smile was golden as the sun.

Her brown eyes warmed with hope and love.

He watches the grass as it moves in its sway.

It takes him back to another day.

The dress she wore was forest green.

Simple and plain, she looked like a queen.

Dancing with vigor all through the night,

Only she could challenge his might.

The ring glittered on her finger, so small.

His affection to show to all.

Alone on the bench, he softly sighs.

As noon sun rises over the park to lie.

The sunbeams flitter admits the tree’s shade.

Like raindrops that fall on a cloudy day.

The window fogged on that cold night.

She lay in the back, out of sight.

Waiting patiently, somber and still.

Waiting for the moment, for the boy’s small squeal.

The wind blew fiercely and then,

His memories drifted back to when.

The time had come and gone so soon.

From kindergarten to marriage at noon.

A tear slid unchecked down his face.

How long had it been since that night of grace?

Footsteps clattered miles away,

Storing the memories for another day.

An old woman watched him.

She had aged so fair.

By her stood a girl with fiery red hair.

 

Have you ever wondered?

Have you ever looked into the night?

Have you looked at the stars, God’s own unique lights?

Have you ever wondered whose watching them, too?

Whether they’re a millionaire or a caretaker of a zoo?

Have you seen the waves crash harshly against the sand?

Have you felt the water pull away the land?

Have you seen a corner dusty and grey?

Have you thought of its use in better days?

Have you felt the heat of a candle glow?

Have you watched its light wither soft and low?

Have you heard a spring gurgle in the night?

Have you thought of hope and fear, weakness and might?

Have you considered what is eternity?

Do you ask yourself what you will see?
Have you ever wondered what time has lain?

Have you ever wondered what will be your yesterdays?

 

Words and Rhythms

Words and rhythms

Encouragement and criticisms

Present and past collide.

Time and chance

Love and circumstance

All part of an eternal dance.

Hope and sorrow

Todays and tomorrows

Bravery and fear

Smiles and tears

Humility and pride

Boldly standing side by side

Battles raging

Armor clanging

Fire falling from the sky.

The river flows

Grace is bestowed

A voice whispers soft and low

Seasons pass

The die is cast

Leaves fall admits the grass

Young and old

Rich or poor

Strong and weak

Their treasures do they always seek.

Myths and lore

Forevermore

From ages come and gone

Their history is our lasting songs.

From land to sea

This is all poetry is, and was, and will be.

 

The Sailboat and the Sea

I am a sailboat, a lady of the sea.

The sea alone takes care of me.

Her salty breezes caress my wooden hull,

Causing my wooden aches to null.

Silently she urges me from shore to shore,

Despite my homeland to see no more.

Her creatures play and glow light sand

They amuse me when I’m far from land

Masters come and masters go,

But the sea will never treat me so.

Now when my time has fully come

So shall her tears on me rain down.

Her waves will gently pull me in,

Despite my fighting, a dreadful sin.

To no avail will my fight go on.

For the sea has always won.

A calming peace will steal my mind,

Slowly will I sink to an embrace so kind.

Now in her shall I always be,

Forever cared for by the sea.

 

The Raven and the Nightingale

 

We know not where the raven flies.

Nor the secrets that he hides.

We know not where the nightingale sings,

Only that it is heard on the morning breeze

We see the raven’s shadow still,

Despite winter’s midnight chill.

We see the nightingale’s springtime glow,

And hear her cooing soft and low.

 

The House and the Tempest

 

The old house stood in the saw,

Of the wind that blew that fateful day,

That fateful day in the month of May.

Over a sea of grey the old house stood,

Not in a sea of greenery wood.

The ivy grew over the house so old,

The house that had been so newly sold.

Its shutters blushed every same,

Out of its joy or maybe its shame.

Now to the tempest somber and still,

Who woke that night for a midnight thrill.

His clouds rolled over the house and well,

The fury of the tempest quick to swell.

It rattled the windows and the ivy cleared.

Leaving the house alone with its fears.

The house looked up in the tempest’s eyes,

To him he softly sighed,

“What wrong have I committed this night?

To deserve this rain and the coming shame,

How have I insulted your might?”

The tempest looked on the house so small,

The house he hadn’t considered at all.

He slipped away without a care,

Slipped away on the morning air.

He left the house alone in its place,

The house that had found its hidden grace.

 

True love’s confidence

What is to be found in a gentle kiss?

Is it not an expression of loving bliss?
what is to be found in a tender touch?

Is it not compassion you feel so much?

When you look into her lovely eyes,

Can you not see where true love lies?

Would you are to look away?

Not savor this moment for yesterdays?

Would you readily forsake,

The one you love, her heart to break?

Would the world draw you to,

Another not made for you?

 

No, you remain for her it seems.

Together you stay, in love’s pure beam.

She comforts you in times of pain.

While you dry her tears, when they pour like rain.

Gathering strength in the darkest fight.

You love glows like a guiding light.

Your tender words are ever true;

The world would draw away not you.

While the future hold its own harsh trials,

Hasher than these so mild.

Together you will confide.

Together you’ll stand side by side.

 

Stars of Christmas

Shadow draw menacingly near.

Yet none who stand draw back in fear.

White light reflects against the gray.

Pain and sadness are done away.

Stars break through both time and shadow.

Their message echoes from mountain to meadow.

Echoing clearly and bright,

The joy of the grace they saw that night.

While time and place they will not say,

Over a field they quietly lay.

Listening to the evening echoes,

Of sheep and shepherds; guardian fellows.

Watching the beauty of an angel chorus,

That sang before the poor of poorest.

While shepherds listen to each refrain,

The stars beam; their joys the same.

Swiftly the shepherds to Bethlehem fly,

And the stars follow gliding high.

A maiden kneels inside a stable,

Glowing with a maternal label.

In a simple and lowly manger,

Lies a child; none the stranger.

The shepherds run throughout the city,

Proclaiming to all the wondrous mystery.

And stars rejoice on the saving story,

Of God’s majestic grace and glory.

Now men and angels together sing.

Boldly, joyfully our voices ring.

Joy to all can each afford.

For today’s the birth of our God and Lord.

 

Time’s Field

The corn grows in the summer’s blaze.

The stalks are cut in fall time’s haze.

White blossoms fall from the apple trees,

Like now that falls on the mountain kings.

Time through all does flow,

Sneaking past us silent and low.

First it’s here, then out of sight,

Like dreams that take a sudden flight. Bring with it eternity,

And to all mortality.

Its song is calm and never ending.

The history of all it’s rending.

A matter of chance it be,

And endless dance for all to see.

 

The Sea’s Song

An art is wielded with quiet grace.

Can any the sea think to chasten?

A song is played from a time long gone.

From a time that started at the dawn.

The wind begins to hum the tune,

As crystal clear as a crescent moon.

The rocks hold the beat inside,

Giving it only to the tide.

The waves present it in the arc,

Hitting it with a slashing mark,

Hitting soundly against the land,

Pulling away the grains of sand.

The seagulls sing with much pride,

Their solo part must be cried.

Along with the music is the foam,

Its expression free to roam.

Finally comes the center piece,

Though none before is in the least.

The sunset glowing against the sea,

Reflects the never ending melody.

 

 

Garret Hausman

 

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Ok, here’s the deal

I don’t know if it’s real

These wounds won’t seem to heal

I just know how I feel

And trust me, it ain’t good

I’d describe it if I could

I don’t know if I feel how I should

It’s like I’m wearing a hood

Not getting the entire view

I don’t know why I can’t stop thinking of you.

99 problems? Oh I have a few

I am trying to find the cure

Tyring to finally become pure

But I am completely sure

That I will not endure

All this pain

Tears fall like rain

My soul is stained

In this state I remain

Please, I ask you to stay

Take heed to what I say

Cause soon is approaching the day

When I will be on my way

Unless I can become clean

On you I would lean

If you know what I mean

I won’t make it on my own steam

 

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The darkness has rein from dusk until dawn

You think I am going, I’m already gone

Fighting seems pointless when you’ve done it for so long

Even if I appear it I’m not really that strong

I’m getting exhausted

The little hope I had, I lost it

I don’t know why I’m here right now

But I know there are things my soul won’t allow

I can’t keep doing this

Everything is amiss

Can’t get you out of my head

 All falls silent once you are dead

But the silence is already sounding

It is enveloping, surrounding

Blood on my hands

 Of time is passing the sands

I realize the blood is my own

And all my pain is finally shown

I let out a scream with a deadly glare

Then I sit in the silence with an ominous stare

For I know this will come to pass once more

But who knows what it is will have in store

If you aren’t afraid, than you are a fool

If for I am terrified because the evil will rule

Unless we can overcome

Then it will be undone

But I am so far down

I am about to drown

In my own sorrow

No hope of tomorrow

I will have my had

But on this earth there is not way

I need an angel to take away my pain

To make all my sufferings finally in vain

To lift up my hands

And help ‘em to stand

I need her in my life

To take away all of my strife

Even heroes have the right to bleed

Even heroes have the right to concede

But this man is too strong to do so

This is what I truly know

I don’t know how I will succeed

But I will not allow the reaper to lead

Over me he has no power

As long as I do not cower

But without you I cannot stand and fight

Without you I have no might

So please, I ask you to give me a chance

I ask you to give me some hope for romance

Because I feel all alone

This world is as cold as a stone

 

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Incomparable beauty in this very same room

Suddenly brings light to all of this gloom

She smiles at me from time to time

And I realize how she is just truly sublime

I don’t know how I feel about her

But I know it is more

Than what exists from friend to friend

With her help my soul would we mend

To make me whole

And purify my soul

Be the saint to my sinner

Be the cure to my hinders

I can guarantee love with all of my heart

All I need is somewhere to start

I would like to be with you

To finally see the brighter hues

I can help you with all of your pains

And make all your troubles in vain

You could make me someone with worth

Love like a fire blazing in a heart

So maybe if you would like to give this a chance

You would say yes to my asking you to the dance

 

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I’m a tortured soul

All I wand o is rock and roll

 Just go and go

Never look back or start to slow

Taking every blow

You’ll never know the pain that I know

The sadness that I know

The feelings that show

Is there an end? No

Whether morale is high or low

I think I’m losing control

 

I’m ready to fight

Whenever the time is right

My eyes are starin

,y nostrils falrin

there’s so much rage

this anger that’s engaged

at the drop of a hat

this or that

it doesn’t matter

I’m like the mad hatter

Too rzay to understand

This wonderland

That I’m in

 I can’t win

A ll I know if I’m ready

My mind is steady

Just vie me a reason

As long as I’m breathin

The only way I’m leavin

Is kcickin and screamin

I can’t run from the pain

There’s nothing to gain

Win or lose it’s all the same

 

I can’t stand

 I’monly one man

To escape this world that is damned

To finally understand

I don’t know if I can

I’m only one man

 

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All I wanna do

I ss fall in love with you

To finally be

With the one I need

I can hardly speak

You must be from above

Because I’m falling in love

To always be together

Our love would never sever

You are the only one I see

You’ll never know how much you mean to me

Nothing can describe

The love that dwells inside

I’ve never felt this way

It’s you I think of every day

This is what I needed to say

 

Would you like to be

Closer to me

To try and see

The view I see

 

I’m so excited

But what if it’s one sided

 

I just want to scream

But I can only dream

That it’s not how it seems

 

All these lies

This deceit I describe

Between her and i

 I wish it would die

If I could I would cry

 

I’m putting off life

Just waiting for the scythe

Why run from something you aren’t afraid of

He is the life take

But also the peace maker

 

 

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All I’ve showed

The things that she knows

I’m feeling exposed

All these question marks

I’m completely in the dark

She doesn’t share

If feelings are there

I must beware

I know that she cares

But the question is where

In her heart or her mind

I’m truly in a bind

If I move

I think I might lose

But if I stay

Of telling there will be no way

It’s an age old deal

Is this real

Does she feel

How I feel

To do what I’m able

To put it all on the table

It would be hard to remain stable

 

Push me

See if I push back

If there is a plan of attack

No matter how the odds are stacked

I will not relax when push comes to shove

I will defend myself and those I love

Once again

I feel like I’m near the end

 

The bigger my problems are, the harder they fall

Unless they do not fall at all

 

This sadness hasn’t vacated

It is just perpetuated

Things that used to matter have faded

I wish I wouldn’t have waited

But it was my decision and I made it

 

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It isn’t yes or no

Nor friend or foe

If you asked, I would say

This area is gray

 

To you I beg and plead

Tell me please

I’m on my knees

What? Can’t you see?

These feeling that be

 

The arguments heated

I’m feeling cheated

Completely mistreated

I don’t want it repeated

But I just had to speak it

 

I once thought I was truly blessed

I thought of you as the best

I forgot all the rest

But now, you have failed the test

 

I am confused

Because there’s nothing I wouldn’t do

Anything for you

But you must choose

Cause I’m feeling used

And fully abused

 

I once lived with a dark cloud over my life

But then she appeared and thing became bright

But now I realize

It was disguse

And now the one I despise

Is i

 

I don’t want to wait

It might be too late

I try not to hate

But I’m stuck in this state

 

For you I want to live

I want to forgive

And forget

I think that’s my best bet

 

 

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I’m feeling pissed

Like there’s something I’ve missed

Now I’m in this competition

I’m not used to this transition

She isn’t a prize

She’s my entire life

I feel alone

They keep casting all these stones

My senses I will hone

Until the truth is shown

And my heart becomes my own

 

I must plan ahead

Or else I’ll be dead

I just need to keep my head

The things that were said

I feel like I’ve been mislead

 

So here we are

In each others’ arms

In life we will go far

But how does this start?

 

The pain isn’t fleeting

Not much sleeping or eating

But my heart is still beating

 

 

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Just your smile

Makes it all worth while

But you aren’t making eye contact

And I just can’t stand that

Please tell me what I’ve done wrong

If I’m coming on too strong,

I need to know

Cause I’m feeling low

You don’t have to know

Cuase I’m feeling low

You don’t have to hide

In me you can confide

Please let me help

So I can know you and you can know yourself

If at the moment you don’t want a man

I can understand

Just remember, for you I am here

To take away all of your fears

To me you will always be dear

For you I will always be there

You have no idea how much I care

 

Hanging by a moment

But I wish I could have known it

 

It turned out just how I thought

And trust me, the lesson was taught

But this battle is still being fought

When I fall, I wonder if I’ll be caught

Whether you are there or not

 

I’ve been wronged and I can’t see

I’ve been hurt and I can’t breathe

The way I feel

It’s so unreal

I just can’t understand

Am I the man

Who I’m supposed to be

Why can I just be me

It hurts so much I miss your touch

I don’t know where I am

Don’t say you know me

That’s what I don’t even know

Don’t say you owe me

Just because I see what shows

I don’t know where I am

Or where I’m supposed to go

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I’m standin here with my back against the wall

I’m ready to brawl

There’s no more time to stall

 

There’s no hope or happiness

I tried to tell you this

But everything’s amiss

There never will be bliss

Just this pain and sadness

 

All my efforts were in vain

Just tryin to win the game

I realized that I became

The thing at which my anger is aimed

And so, this is what I wish to proclaim

That I’ll be the one to end the pain

And send the evil back again

Never to return and maim

The souls of those who posses more than their name

 

O watcher of me

My pain would you end

Relief could you sned

And let me feel this never again

So I could rest as the lion in its den

 

He carries me now

And wipes the sweat from my brow

But my pain hasn’t ended

I’m not feeling defended

 

Her words

Like rays of sun shinging through the clouds

Her love

Like a burning fire warming those around

Her mind

Like an enigma that is impossible to navigate

Her heart

A prize that is worth all the sacrifices one can make

 

I’m tired of waiting

All this debating

Commiserating

I want to stop hating

But the noise is still grating

 

 

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All is fair in love and war

But sill my heart will soar

 

I hate this life

All this pain and strife

It cuts as sharp as a knife

 

Just as the sun flees from the night

As will I run from my plight

Because no longer am I able to fight

Tired of shadows and longing for light

Scared cause I could be the one it will smite

 

Never seeing light but only darkness

My pain will I use and finally harness

To do what I will

And finally kill

All that stands in my way

Each and every damned day

Of this very existence

There’s no longer resistance

So now I lift up my hands

To you who knows all of man

I shall raise up my sword and shield

And become the one who will yield

All that is power in thy name

And finally forget all o fmy pain

 

I am so tired

My time has expired

I am ready to die

And stop living this lie

Longing to rise up

And drink from his cup

Becoming what I’m meant to be

And finally understanding me

To walk down the golden road

And let him release me from this load

My burdens would be lifted

And my pain would be sifted

From me and my love

When I am above

 

 

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There once was a fire inside

But now I feel it has died

My heart is still beating

But my life, it is fleeting

I feel myself slowing

I don’t know if it’s showing

But it’s happening all the same

I think that I’m going insane

 

The sun is setting on a dismal day

I’m not gone, but I’m on my way

The moon is out and the night is here

There is no longer something to fear

Unless you are afraid of the dark

Which is more than waiting to hear the lark

It is the fear of the unknown

And the dear of what is not shown

But who is to say that it should be feared

Maybe with respect, it should be revered

Why fear that which you do not comprehend?

Give me your love and knowledge I will lend

To confront your fears

And wipe away your tears

Comfortable in any situation

Not avoiding confrontation

To be this way would be so nice

Without any possible vice

But who is to say this is possible?

In fact it’s probably implausible

But that doesn’t mean you should not try

Even if it’s the reason you cry

Your shortcomings are the things that are ruining you

Its not what you’ve done it’s what you’re afraid to do

The darkness of night will always be there

Even when you feel you shouldn’t beware

 

I’m tired to trying

Tired of crying

Tired of everyone constantly prying

Wishing they all would give me some space

But afraid of what I’d do in this place

All alone

Cold as a stone

I’m so thrown

What once was known

Is now condoned.

 

 

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I’m running out of inspiration

Nerves and perspiration

All this anticipation

You can’t understand the complication

With all I do there is hesitation

Not trusting my moved

Or believing in you

My confidence is gone

From dusk until dawn

This is how I live

I’d ask you to forgive

But I don’t deserve it

This fire has been lit

Let it rage with a thousand flames

And I will be the one who takes the blame

And accepts the shame

Of being disdained

 

I just can’t stop screamin

These tears keep on streamin

Down my face

I don’t like this place

I can’t stand the place

I won’t win the race

What do I have to live for

There is nothing more

Than the mystery beyond the closed door

Knock and the door will be opened unto you

Bu what if that’s the very thing you’re afraid to do

Why can’t we just think about today

But you and I know there is no way

The human nature is to worry

But I ask you, what’s the hurry

It is all in vain

Because we have so little power over our pain

 

I’m trying to find

Some piece of mind

But it’s hard to be kind

When you’re always undermined.

 

Mo Anderson

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Conceal not your burden

            But let it free

Hide not your pain     

            For it shall consume thee

Fear not alone

            You will never be

God is with you          

            Always forever free

Beware: Attacking Bananas!

One bright and shiny day,

A banana rolled won the street,

Shrieking and saying,

“I’m such a treat!”

 

Now I just had to stop and look,

Upon the talking banana,

It gently shook,

Then it yelled, “I’m Hannah!”

 

I jumped back and laughed,

‘How could this be true?’

It would be such a task

If a banana could talk to you.

 

It shook again,

Fangs started to grow,

As it started to begin,

To jump and glow

 

‘Whoa!’ I thought jumping back,

the banana continued to grow,

then I lost my hat,

as the banana chuckled evilly low.

 

Next thing I know,

It picked me up,

Then ate my new shoes,

As it blew another fuse!

 

Now I have a bit of advice to say,

Remember this and remind yourself everyday,

Never trust a rolling banana,

Especially the one named Hannah.

Beep

BEEP!

I hit the snooze

Then I smashed it with my shoe

BEEP!

It’s still alive

It somehow survived

BEEP!

I must kill it

But I have no strength to hit it

BEEP!

There it goes again

My head is in pain

BEEP!

That’s the last straw!

The thing has  flaw!

BE-*crunch*

Life is good

The alarm is dead!

One Stormy Night

One stormy night

I went to bed

Only to be awaken by dread

I moaned as I rolled over

Hoping to dream

But my dogs started barking

I yelled at them at the top of my lungs

But they didn’t hear me, just my mom

After a lecture and a cookie

I tried to sleep again

I finally gave up and fell out of bed

I wandered to the bathroom

Hoping to wake up

I stumbled over a vacuum cleaner

And hit my head on the counter

I rolled over on the ground; holding my aching head

Then something came and attacked me

Making me mad

I stood up on my feet

Only to fall over again

I growled and crawled down the stairs

I didn’t make it far before I crawled out a door

I mumbled something strange

Then wandered into the kitchen looking for chicken

And lo and behold!

My best friend was eating my bread!

I asked her what she was doing

She merely shrugged and told me to shut up

I stumbled into my dining room only to see

My boyfriend eating spaghetti!

I was really scared then

Hoping not to find a blue haired boy in my living room

I stumbled into there to find a Squeaky Toy!

It was potato sthaped and it had epilepsy

I was now ready to scream

I fell down a flight of stairs

Then rolled into the recording studio

I found a flaming pie there

Someone was worshiping it

I looked at the person

Unable to comprehend a thing

Until she sang “Michigan”

I knew it then

She was the Queen

I positively screamed!

A loud crash resounded again

I open my eyes to find I was in bed!

Soda Run

Dashing through the snow

After the soda we go!

Laughing all the way,

In our caffeine/sugar crave!

 

Oh, soda, most wonderful soda,

You better behave,

For here we come in our one horse sleight.

We see you hiding over the ridge

So we’ll go riding over the bridge.

We know where you are.

You can not hid for long.

For we are the Soda Hogs,

And this is our drinking song!

 

Sugar! Sugar!

Caffeine! Caffeine!

Soda run!

For here we come!

Random

Running snakes sing silently

While cats bark happily.

Then the rooster has hens,

Since there hasn’t been a sin.

If you hadn’t notice,

This is random nonsense.

Especially since I’m in class,

Munching on yummy snacks.

My dogs are learning Math.

My fish is running track.

Where will this madness end!

Perhaps just around the river bend,

Then over the falls and through the halls

To grandmother’s house we go! Weeee!!

I Sing of the Cookie

When I get hungry,

I think of only one thing,

‘I must have a cookie!’

then I begin to sing.

I sing of the gooeyness,

I sing of the chocolate chips,

I sing of the softness,

Ooooo, it’s such heavenly bliss.

I could not live,

Without my cookie,

I can not believe,

That I am that hungry.

I love peanut butter and chocolate c hip,

I love the Carmel and the dark chocolate,

I love the special butterscotch ‘nitch’,

I love how they all fit

Inside my rumbling tummy.

Oh! How I could not live,

Without my favorite cookie!

The Ode to the Bus

Oh! The Bus of Insanity!

It’s silly, silly way!

Not a day went by,

When another was snatched away!

 

She’ll wait till the last moment,

Then she’ll spring.

She’ll snatch away her friends,

Then run off to sing.

Now her friends don’t question,

That she is insane.

The only question they have,

‘Does she have a brain?’

they do not know of the Bus,

or it’s funny ways.

When they finally found out,

It was much too late.

The girl’s silly bunch of friends,

Were snatched away!

Now many were on the Bus,

The few chosen crew.

The Pie Queen drove,

As Chaos flew.

All were insane,

On this Bus of Insanity.

All didn’t have a clue,

What they had gotten into.

 

Oh! The Bus of Insanity!

It’s silly, silly ways!

There was no one sane,

Who live to see another day!

Sweet Dream

There I sat slightly sleeping,

When my teacher yelled, “My hair is missing!”

I spun out of my chair and unto the floor,

There I slept with another snore.

 

Later I awake with a sputter,

Only to fall back over into a gutter.

I cracked open an eye and to my dismay,

There above me circled vultures and birds of prey!

“oh, boy,” I muttered, “what a joyous day…”

 

once more I sat up carefully,

watching the birds of prey circle me diligently.

“Wait a moment,” I looked around me, “where are my milk and cookies?!”

I sprang up to my feet with a mighty leap.

Once more I somehow managed to fall over and begin to sleep.

 

Then again I awoke and looked around.

This time I was sitting on a pitching mound!

“Oh, dear me…how’d I get here?” I wondered out loud.

 

“hello!” sang a bird brightly buckled in gray.

“My name is Coo-coo! Who are you?”

I starred  at the curious bird.

How did such a thing know these words?

I starred and I starred until the bird was nothing more,

But gray swirls tumbling, falling, sinking forever more.

 

I think again I feel back asleep.

This time I awoke to the sound of a beep!

Then came my mother knocking on my door.

“C’mon dear! It’s time to go to the store!”

I mumbled and groaned as I crawled out of bed.

I, of course, managed to hit my head.

I grumbled and moaned once again,

As the walls began to spin!

 

This time before I awoke,

Someone was cooking.

Cooking with smoke.

I choked and gagged.

I even almost fell over dead!

Though this time before I truly awoke,

Choking on that evil smoke.

 

Sometime later,

I don’t remember when,

I cracked open an eye once again.

This time I saw what I should have seen all along.

My milk and cookies sitting where they belong.!

 

Though they seemed to mock,

Like I was just some rock.

For truly I was not.

I looked and I watched but I could not find out,

Why they seemed to hate me without a doubt.

 

I longed for the sweet, delicate taste of the cookie.

I wanted the cool refreshing drink sitting by me.

They continued their game to laugh and taunt.

I grumbled and I growled as I watched from afar.

Someone had stolen my yummy cookie bar!

 

Then from a distance beyond my hearing,

Someone was clearly yelling.

They seemed to say my name.

Closer the sound ever became.

 

Slowly it began to rain.

The slow, dreadful pitter-patter drove me insane!

And again I heard someone calling my name.

It was like I was trapped within a picture frame.

Everything I could see through the glossy film,

But nothing I could say would ever be heard.

On , if only I were a bird!

 

Once again that calling of my name.

I feared I would never be sane.

I cracked open an eye and to my dismay,

There was teacher holding my failing grade.

School, School, What am I to do?

School, school

So much to do

Never time to stop and drool

 

It’s taking over my life

With little might and strife

It’s cutting like a knife

Why is it becoming my life!

 

Books and exams

Always having to cram

I think I’ll call it Uncle Sam

 

What happened to the fun things to do?

Oh yeah, they vacation in Kalamazoo!

What am I to do?

Join the cirrus and the zoo?

I’m loosing my screws!

 

School, school

It’s not very cool

Follow the rules

 

Stay in line

Don’t fall behind

Remember to dine

Study before nine

Pay your loans in dimes

 

So much to do

So little time!

What am I to do?

Tongue Twister Truth

I’m a…

Truth speaking, Gospel talking

Food loving, home destroying

Wide eyed, sanctified

Psycho Extraordinaire

With a…

Frying pan, head band,

Silver cape, loving Nate

Five CD’s, free DVDs

Baka Extraordinaire

What can you say>

I do this day by day

Think you can stop me?

I’ll just wait and see

Because I’m insane

And it runs in the family

While in France

I once went to Paris

It was mighty cool

Except for the public bathrooms

They scared me out the wazoo

I tried to avoid those as much as possible

But when you gotta go, ya gotta go

I shuddered as I put my money in the slot

Out came a ticket, I think it was my recite

The restaurant bathrooms weren’t to bad

Just a little expensive

But the Johnny on the Spots gave me the willies

You had ten minutes to do you’

Re business

Then the door flies open, for all the world to see

You better get out quick

Or the cleaning machine will surely give you the slip

Questions of Wonder

So I’ve been asked many thing,

By many different people,

But only a few things stand out.

 

“Why are you always so happy?”

Someone once asked me; I replied

“Why not be happy? Why not love?

Why not share why my life is grand?”

And so I started to wonder,

Why did I believe in what I said?

Another person once asked me, “Why

Do you find life so amusing?”

I laughed and shrugged, “because it is.”

And still I went on to wonder,

Why did I believe in what I said?

 

Again, I was asked by a friend,

“do you believe in what you do?”

I replied, “and if I did not,

Would I still be doing it now?

I will live life without regrets,

So I can enjoy it with ease.”

And I continued to wonder,

Why did I believe in what I said?

 

Then one day an atheist asked,

“Why do you believe in God?” she

looked in my eyes for an answer.

I opened my mouth to reply,

But no words came out, so I stopped

To breathe and began to wonder.

 

Always when I answered question,

I spoke of life, love, and laughter

But now I had no reply,

No answer to her question.

I knew why I was happy,

Why I loved life, why I believed

In the actions in which I partook,

But I just didn’t know why I trusted

In God. I looked at her and said,

“I don’t know why, I just believe…”

the atheist just snorted and left

and still I stood with my eyes shut

looking for the right answer.

And the harder I looked,

The less I could I find.

I was lost in a sea of questions

With never an answer to be found.

 

So now I drift, always wondering,

“Why do I believe in God?”

Cutting the Grass

Oh the sun! how bright it is,

On this day without breeze.

I pull out my lawnmower,

And cut down all the weeds,

As the sun bares down on me.

The dirt and sweat cover my face,

I’m covered from head to toe.

There’s no end to this day,

And the wind just won’t flow.

Why me> why do I have to cut,

This horrid grass that does not end!

It won’t go away, it won’t die

It won’t even bend!

Die grass DIE! Go away!

This day is too hot to stand,

I just want to go swimming, not cut this grass by hand.

Why grass, WHY do you hinder me?

What have I done to you?

Just die all ready!

Oh great…you just grew…

Poisonous Words

A game played by many

Mostly by foolish kids

A game so dangerous

Almost everyone plays

No one can win at this

Except those that mean it

The three words mean nothing

When said without truth

Three easy words of life

So essential to us

Yet a poison to say

The words, “I love you”

Break us each day.

Music

Lifted away my melodies

Captured by endless harmonies

Encircled by eternity

Now I am free, now I am free

 

Living within the breathing notes

Listen as the music boasts

I am now an eternal host

For the true notes, for the true notes

 

Breathe in the music of this life

Be free fro all your dying strife

Now be inside this truthful blithe

You deserve life, you deserve life

 

This music brings you a message

Life is an unending passage

Though problems may yet seem massive

You’ll live through it, you’ll live through it

Our Service To Man

Backed by Almighty hands

Our aid we work for man

We live to serve and help

For God and not ourselves

We give all that we are

To help those near and far

We may receive nothing

But the words “thanks for helping”

Though these words make our day

So now we can only say

Thank you God for giving

Us the strength for helping

That Cross

On a grassy hill

Was a solemn cross

Red-stained and bare

A remembered loss

 

The cross told a story

Of a man who lived

How he died for love

To take away our sin

 

His blood still stained

Where his hands had laid

His story was complete

Our price was paid

 

A light shone down

Showing us the loss

He was Jesus Christ

Destined to die on that cross

That Smile

On that winter day,

With nothing to say,

You smiled at me

And I was swept away!

 

You were gone as you came,

I wasn’t left the same,

I saw you every day,

But what could I say?

 

That day it was snowing,

I kept on slipping,

You caught me when I fell,

And made sure I was well.

 

You smile warmed me slowly,

Easing away my worries,

My day may have been dreary,

But you made me so happy!

 

On that cold winter day,

I had something to say,

“I love your smile”

I blushed and looked away.

 

You eyes sparkled with delight,

I saw within a sacred light,

You pulled me close and held me tight,

You gently led me home that night.

 

You smile was so real,

Oh, how it made me feel!

I know it is love,

It is love for you.

How?

How can you be found,

When you’re lost among your dreams?

How can you see,

When everything has made you blind>

How can you solve,

When a problem has no answer?

How can you live,

When you’re empty inside?

So many thing that you can’t heal,

Is breaking you, tearing you from within.

Because,

How can you forgive,

When you can’t forget?

How can you love,

When you feel hate?

How can you save,

When you aren’t rescued?

How can you protect,

When you are alone?

You want to be saved,

But no savior has come.

You’re breaking form within…

No one can save you.

How can you run,

When you have nowhere to go?

Dark Love

Darkly tainted by lovers blood,

Is a small thorn of little love.

It’s so tiny, yet so harmful.

It damages the love of many young souls.

Deadly beauty it is so see.,

Temptation from it freely reigns.

Thanks to the little thorn,

Attached to a black Rose,

Love is a deadly game,

Played only by fools

His Capturing Eyes

His eyes hold a truth, dark and light,

They still soothe me in the darkest night.

Dark blue pure they are to me,

I wish to gaze and forever see,

The reflection of the gentle sea.

Dark blue of calm and of intelligence,

Light blue of love and of times since.

His beautiful eyes keep me here.

His capturing eyes take me to where,

The animals dance and talk.

Where we can quietly walk,

Hand in hand, side by side.

Together we will find…

The truth inside…his beautiful eyes.

Next Chance

Wind blowing through her hair,

The ball sailing through the air.

Second left, game tied,

The ball n the opposing teams side.

Ready and pumped, she dives for the ball,

Offside are the forwards, they broke the law.

The whistle blows and everyone stops,

The game is over, the ball has flopped.

She’s on the ground, she lost her chance,

She smiles and shrugs, as the other team dance.

Her chance will come again.

Next time…THEY will win.

 

Lindsey Bland

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You are different now

Something has changed

Or has it?

 

I thought hat I could stop you

I did not fear the thorns

For they could not harm me

I was wrong

They grew into daggers that could tear me

Poison-tipped barbs that would pierce my soul

 

You say you will never hear me

But did you know that it is too late?

That my soul is trapped in your embrace?

 

Something inside of me screams to break free

But something stronger whisper

This is where I belong

And that is what frightens me

 

But I must ask myself

Is it really you I fear?

Or me?

 

Abby L. Bodenstab

The Hearts

One beats with a fire

That scorches the soul

Inflames the blood

And creates a hole

 

Once’ filled with ice

Colder than stone

It’s stillness suppresses

The last small moan

 

One beats steadily

Destined to die

Never to live again

After it’s cry

 

One beats in time

To the toll of the bell

In it’s first hour of life

It’s destined for hell

 

One beats as Keeper

Of secrets untold

The last one to sell

An innocent soul

 

The last one beats

Past all time and space

Never to die again

Unlike the human race

Who’s the Fool?

Don’t take me for the fool you see

I’m not like you, I’m simply me

And just because you think you’re cool

Doesn’t mean you’re not the fool

Though you may think me old

I’m not the one who think I’m a god

Your popularity won’t last very long

And before you know it high school is gone

And with it all your selfish dreams

Your plots and plans and brilliant schemes

Then into life you’ll find yourself thrown

And wake up to find you’re all alone

So when reality finally hits you

And you find out nothing is what you knew

Think back on me and ask yourself this

Who’s the fool now? It’s a bitter kiss.

You Don’t Know Me

My name is unknown

My signature not there

You don’t know what I look like

I was never here

 

You can’t prove I exist

Or that I’m still alive

My identity is a secret

That the government well hides

 

You’ll never know

That I was once here

My face is erased

It has been for years

 

I no longer exist

My old life I’ve shed

The government has hidden it

That other person is dead

 

You must be mistaken

I’m not that one

It’s all over now

That old life is done

 

So move along now

And go on your way

I once was that person

But I am not today

 

That name is unknown

That signature is not mine

You’ve got the wrong person

I’m not here this time

The Drowned Vengeance

the dark waves crash far out to sea

the wind cried out so mournfully

the King of the Ocean lies calmly asleep

this night, his handy work, the ocean will keep

alone on the waves that cut with a chill

floats a man with a wish, simply to kill

his mates are all dead, his good ship is sunk

a single tear falls to the sea with a plunk

as he looks to the west where the ship now lays

he loudly vows vengeance to the moon light haze

a fire in his eye and a hate in his heart

he dives deep down as fast as a dart

to the floor of the oceans so dark and so deep

he tried to reach it but it was his defeat

the King of the Waves lies fast asleep

the waters that surround him will forever keep

the secret of the drowned revenge

a bigger mystery then that of Stone Henge

The Poem that Ran Away

There actually was a poem here

Though where it is now I can’t say

Maybe it got tired of hanging around

And just got up and walked away

 

Or maybe it was eaten

By a monster, a big, fat, hairy beast

That roams the jungles of South Africa

Looking for things on which to feast

 

Or maybe it was swept away

By the howling North wind as it blew

And I’ll never be able to find it again

‘Cause it landed in a traveler’s shoe

 

or perhaps it just melted away

‘cause it was left out in the rain

the poor thing was made of sugar

and so it went down the drain

 

or maybe it was never made

because I’m so absent minded

yes my homework was not done

so you’ll never find it

 

Stuart Barton

Believe

Trapped far beneath the surface of reality

Unable to escape using physical force

I fear I will die here

I need to break away

Break through

Break free

The end is creeping up so quickly now

It’s here to take me away

But I’m not ready to go

I just want to see

See, again, the world above me

Somehow I must get out

I must get out before it’s too late

Try harder and believe, that is the key

I have to hurry, it’s getting closer now

Believe I can do it, believer

I believe I n the good, not the bad

I believe in the brave, not the scared

I believe in Him, the One who loves

My body is moving, rising swiftly upward

It worked, I can see

See again, the wonders of life

Friends and family, the ones I love

I now know the answer to keep me alive

Never again will I be trapped so deep

Believe in Love and love to believe

And I forever will be free

 

Emilia Saffel

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Can I made a trade, for alight which was make. I go to peace when I close my eyes to sleep and it all seems to fade

in the dark all I can see are the faces of pain, chills worse than a cold days rain, MASK of confusion, I can feel the intrusion.

No escape from the shadows that’s destroying me, I’m tired of running, exhausted from fear. No patience left can’t see ahead, ready to sleep.

Slow killing, slowly dying, where were you when the clock slowed down…nothing to do with the mind shut down

Numb

I wish that I could not love

I wish that my hear were numb.

Every time I love I die a little more.

You have taken all of me.

And now I slowly ware away.

Forget about me.

Depression

Depression my mind is all the matter of the fault. The tears of my sadness no longer salty but pure sweetness. Carry my weight my burden, nothing by a feather.  They eyes no longer heavy to escape reality, but light as the morning air. Now to realize the sunset is never quite the same. Watch, listen how wonderful, so full of life and beauty, now words could begin to comprehend how amazing. It tastes such as honey yet soft as a gaze. It looks so hard but seems so easy. Black as the night sky, bright shines the morning star. To love impossible to love and be loved, eternal, everlasting. The bud blossoms and a flower arise. Open your eyes what do you see? Close your eyes what do you feel, truly inevitable. Feel with you heart not with your sight. Depression my mind is all the matter of the fault.

Black Hole

My hold of loneliness is never ending. Sadness surrounds me suffocating my most being. Tears of my sea stream down my cheeks. Reaching for warmth and receive the shoulder. Yearning for loving arms, and a lame fog is replaced. You’ll never live to see the world through my eyes. Never to feel my pain and anguish. To suffer my sacrifices, carry my burden. Love me forever or leave me to die. Look in my eyes I’ll be your light I’ll be your light.

Someone

I have someone who when I cam cold holds me in his arms. Someone who wouldn’t oppress me but love me in everyway. Someone that accommodates my hand when around friends and is never ashamed. Someone who takes everything despicable and makes it exquisite with one word. I desired devotion and have received more. I have found someone that is you to parcel existence with.

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Ever star that I see I feel calm and bright, your voice like music passes through my soul and shows me a light. After shedding tears I feel more pain than I had before. Looking at the night sky, my heart lightens and searches for a meaning in life, a reason to go on. Breathing clears my mind, renewing me for a new day of hurt and disappointments. Time after time you are near but my body itches to be closer.

Truth or lies

Between the lines of a lie is a hidden truth. Within the lines of the truth is a lie. To hard to hold, too complicated to explain. Completely mutilated to read what you want to hear or see.

Breaking down

So many tear I have shed for you. Still I do not break. I believe what I believe and to that I must stay true. Often you expressed your love for me, yet love of yours for me I do not believe nor trust. You have your ways and I have mine, two of which do not combine. Sacrifices are all that are needed for two to stay true. But that wouldn’t be done you for me not I for you. My fried and mistakes will forever haunt me. As I know this may be hard for you to see, Goodbye has been started. But in my dreams thing aren’t so complicated. Maybe one day you could forgive me and all that I’ve done wrong, but forever I’ll wait no matter how long.

Loving Memory

My eyes burn to see you, but you are no where in sight. I just close my eyes to watch a loving memory.  Make me cry and hurt me. I open my heart to release a loving memory. Rid me of the one person I love. I will expand my imagination and I will live in a loving memory. I will miss your sweet gaze, your soft touch, never to really leave me because I am living in your loving memory. Your gone, really gone, gone beyond even my imagination, no need for imagination when you are my loving memory.

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Ever felt someone’s warm look and knew whom it was? Felt so much for someone that you thought you would explode. Heard a voice so beautiful you thought you could just cry. Been so lonely, even being lonely was company enough. Desired someone so much that you needed them right then, right now. Felt someone was a black hold, that just sucked all of your life and energy. Giving you nothing back but promises.

Believing

In your eyes I believed your lies, in your eyes heard your cries. Eyes of comfort eyes of lover. Their forever I lose myself. Tick tock, slowly, painfully, time wares. How easily you eased my cares, that love for you in only mine. My once partner in crime